Dismay

What do I do when I see contempt on every ones face ?
What do I do if I hear the shattering sound of my dreams every day?
What do I do when my heart dries...
but tears fill my eyes?
Where do I go when there's thick fog on my way...?
What do I say...
when god won't hear when I pray...?
My mind says run away...
but my brave heart like a wounded soldier on the
border...surrounded by enemies...succumbed by pain
still wants to stay...
Even As I turn to clay...
the pain of lost love ...will not fade...
my soul shall lay astray...

To find You it dies so many times ...to feel bliss it
suffers so many knives ...to see the light of the day
it is blinded for so many nights..
What do I do if I fail to go along with U in your Play...?

Enlighten me O! lord!
Hold my hand as I can't walk
Burdened by my own helplessness
I can't see the path...
my strength desserts me...
my thoughts deceive me...
the darkness engulfs me...
my person is in debt...
its come here to pay...

kindle my heart with your prevalence ...
lit up my intellect with the flame of endurance...

Help me as I am lost & fray...
Help me fight the chains of Dismay...

- Shreeja Jhawar
09/09/09
9.00 A.M.